bell jar

Alright...... Mentally, I'm exhuasted. I've just finished reading Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar. Talk about a mind-trip.

Yet.. while the book is all encompassing and somehow sucks you in... it's not even that part the really bothers me.

It's the fact that I think most people have been there.

Here's "YOUR LIFE". Good job, get married, go to school, do well, make money, have a family... it's incredibly stressful sometimes to simply live.

Can we, as a society, hold on to our sanity? There's so many levels of acceptance that we have to meet some days.

Did I work hard enough today? Will I be able to pay the bills? Are my co-workers mad at me? Is this the job I've always wanted?

Sometimes it feels like all your dreams and things you wanted to do are taken away from you and you're not even sure how it happened. You can't even look back at the past and say "Hey, that's what the problem was". It's as if the entire system is working against you and all you want to do is say...

Open a fast food restaurant selling cheeseburgers using funnel cakes as the buns.

Why is it so hard to be happy? Whew.

But I'm happy. I've got a good job and an amazing wife. And I love every minute of it.

One day I'll open that fast food joint. :-)

-it is what it is-

-joshua